July 26, 2012

The Womanifesto Challenge!


I guess the moment has come.   The moment of truth and the moment of freedom.  I don’t know how this will begin or how this will end, all I know is that I will voice my thoughts, my deepest emotions and MY truth.  I’ve always professed, claimed and known that I  Am Who I Am!  But, there was always something missing, a missing link, a piece of the puzzle. My insides felt as though there was something I needed to do to be completely and utterly ME!   And that is to let go.   To let go of the hidden shame that although I fight it, it lurks and at times creeps out at me and makes me feel ugly. Well no more.   Today I claim myself back!   Today I claim ME back!  Today I profess my Womanifesto!

I am a soul who chose to be born.
I am a Kindred Spirit.
Many lives, many deaths.
I am Who I Am!

I am an innocent cheerful happy little girl.
I am a victim of hideous crime of kidnap and rape.
I am a sad dead little girl stripped of her innocence.
I am a picture on the wall "Have you seen me?"
I Am Who I Am!

I am a victim of the system and a world of ignorance.
I am a statistic that fell through the cracks, a piece of paper in a pile.
I am a shameful, self-blamed little girl.
I am a repressed and tormented little girl.
I Am Who I Am!

I am a young girl who learned to forget.
Forget what she feels.  Forget who she is.
Learned to hold back. Learned to live dead.
Learned to self hate.  Learned to self loathe.
I Am Who I Am!

I am a woman with flash backs of blood. Knives.
Distorted memories of fear.  Of darkness and doom.
I am detached from the brain.  Who am I?  I say!
I am a mother whose world crumbled around her.
Oh I pray.  And I pray.  And I pray.
I Am Who I Am!


I am the lost. The homeless.
I am the crack head on the street.
I am the hole of darkness.  Oh so deep.
I want out!  I want out!  Someone help me please!
I Am Who I Am!

I am the damsel in distress.
I am a princess in disguise.
A punching bag for anger.
I am a sink hole in hell.  And it hurts.
I am the living dead. 
I Am Who I Am!

I am the grinding of teeth. The squinting of eyes.
The scraping. The digging.  I am my faith.
I am the kicking. The running.  Escaping.
I am a fighter.  I am a warrior.  A child of God.
I Am Who I Am!

I am the sleepless nights.  The hour of every hour.
I am the depression.  I am the learning to feel.
I am the learning to remember.  I am the scream!
I am the lonely.  I am the sad. I am the heartbroken. 
I am the lamb.  I am the wolf.
I Am Who I Am!

I am the woman.  The mother.  The patient.
Again and Again.  I am patience.
I am endurance.  I am relentless. 
I am the runner.  I am the strength
I am the Power.  I am the key.
I am the forgotten little girl. 
Embraced.  Loved.
I am the woman.
Embraced.  Loved. 
I am a survivor.
I Am Who I Am!

I am the author of my life. No one governs me.
I decide for myself.
I feel, speak with my heart. Siempre! Always!
I am strong, I am weak,
I am smart, humble, gentle, kind.

I am serving.
I Am Who I Am!


I am not perfect, I have scars, a past rooted with pain.
I am fire, rain, wind, rock, energy, love
I am the streaming river of tears, the roaring thunder of cries
I am the bursting sunshine rays of smiles.
I Am Who I Am!


I am a flower, a butterfly flying free.
Always discovering new things.  New experiences.
I am a wild horse galloping free.
I am all of those things.

I Am Who I Am!

I LOVE ME!   It is my right!
I love my weirdness, my uniqueness, craziness and silliness
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I am beautiful, vibrant, funky, colorful.
I love my Cubananishi curves.  I rock my short hair!
I love my high heels!  So what!
I will be 80, still wear'em, still love'em!
It is my right!

I am girly and sexyy (yep with an xtra y).
I am flirtatious, sensitive and strong-willed.
I am scared, I am fierce, I am a bad-ass!
I follow no trend.  I go by my mood.
I honor my soul.   I dress how I feel NOT as I'm told.
It is my right!

I love to laugh!   I love to hear music and dance!
I meditate.  Only I can hold myself back.
I embrace my own beat.   Follow the rhythm of my own flow!
Because I can! I am mystery.  I LOVE myself!

I am the mountains, I am the universe, I am power.
I am the little girl.   I am the woman.   It is ME!
And I truly and simplyy am...

I Am Who I Am!
A kindred spirit.
Many lives, many deaths.
I Am Who I Am!

It is MY right!

I am hard as steel and delicate as silk.  
Give me your best shot!
Have you seen me?
                ~SimplyyMayra

I am so grateful for the given opportunity to write My Womanifesto.  I want to applaud Jes from The Militant Baker who encourages everyone to write their own.  She has no hair on her tongue when it comes to telling it like it is and I highly respect and admire her raw honesty and kick-ass attitude!  I so badly want to be a Baker Babe, but I don't really bake.   Unless the ready to bake Pillsbury Chocolate Chips Cookies count.  Do they?  They should!

Anyway, this is what she says a Womanifesto is:   A written statement declaring publicly the intentions, motives and views of its female author. May include themes of empowerment, independence, self love, consciousness, affirmation and individual acceptance; your positive beliefs about yourself. Created to give self-describe definition in regards to the innate beauty inside of every woman. Yes, even you!  If you haven't done one yet, you really, really should!  Thank you for stopping by and sharing this exhilarating, liberating and empowering experience with me!


The Militant Baker

Tootles!

18 comments:

  1. This is so incredible. Thank you for being so honest... And I thought I emailed you back, so lemme check and see.

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    1. Thanks Jes, I've learned that the only way to live is YOUR truth. I really appreciate you stopping by to voice your thoughts. Tootles!

      ~SimplyyMayra

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  2. Oh my darling. I am so proud of you! That is not meant to sound patronizing, I am actually crying at the keyboard. I was the victim of a sexual assault, but not as young. You are right, we are survivors! There is so much to celebrate in that! I'm so glad I found your blog. I feel really connected to you, even though we haven't met. We will have to fix that one day.

    Hugs and kisses,

    Stephanie
    www.bassability.blogspot.com

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    1. Awww Steph you are so sweet and good to me. You patronizing? NEVER! I actually cried at the keyboard too as I was pouring it all out! I really didn't know what was going to come out but as soon as the started, it just all came out like pouring rain. Yes we ARE survivors and there is much to celebrate in that!

      Since that beginning, when I "coincidentlly" stumbled upon Bassability, I immediate fell connected to you too! I didn't know why...I just did. I am blessed I found you blog and it would be Superdeedooperdee awesome if we really got to "fix" that one day! Oh boy, I would LOVE it! As siempre, it is a pleasure to have you visit. Tootles!

      Con Mucho CariƱo,
      ~SimplyyMayra...your kindred spirit Amiga

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  3. Yay! You wrote one too! So proud of you for being so honest. You are an absolute inspiration.

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    1. Yes I did Helen, and it was of a therapeutic nature to me. You too are an absolute inspiration! I am so proud of you bathing suit post...you are an incredibly amazing lovely lady! You. Are. Beautiful. Tootles!

      With a BIG hug,
      ~SimplyyMayra

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  4. WOW! You are a SOLDIER a WARRIOR that stood up face to face to your demans by holding in one hand a sword of inner will and strengh and in your other hand a shield of your faith in Jesuschrist fighting the battle of those demans that once held you down. But no more. They have dropped! You are triumph! By your WOMANIFESTO you have created a spark of awakening my inner strengh and will to stand up and face my demans and fight back in THE BATTLE OF DEMANS. Thank you mi li'l sis! I am so PROUD of you! Keep on a rolling! ;*) I love you!

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    1. You voice your thoughts so beautifully! Thanks big sis! I am so PROUD of YOU too! I am blessed to have you as a sis and am happy I can be of inspiration to you. Keep on-a-rollin' too! Love ya too! Tootles!

      ~SimplyyMayra

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  5. Glad you finally let it out...AMAZING...luv u sis! I think this is the best you've written...your TRUTH. When can I expect your first best seller? :D

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    1. Awww my baby sis I miss you soooo much. Thank you for always being my #1 supporter and cheerleader when it comes to my writing. I appreciate YOU! Thanks for stopping by! Tootles! Love ya...

      ~SimplyMayra

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  6. I love it! You are a true inspiration, I definitely felt that ooomf! of empowerment! You were bold you were honest and you were YOU!

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    1. Thanks for the kind words of inspiration mi amorcito lindo! I appreciate YOU and YOU are a true inspiration to me too! Love you

      Siempre Contigo
      *Mom

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  7. I mean; the battle of (MY) demons, not of(THE)demons. Also the spelling of the word demans(demons). LOL It happens to the BEST of us! LOL

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    1. LOL sis! Yes it does happen to the BEST of us. I understood what you meant, but thanks for the clarification! Love ya! Tootles!

      ~SimplyyMayra

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  8. Wow. As I say in pretty much every post, wow. This is an amazing post, truly inspirational. I, as your youngest daughter, am extremely proud to see how far you have come. Sharing this post, although it may have been difficult, not only helps you receive closure but helps others learn from your utmost honesty. The poem was absolutely amazing. It is your truth and said so through such astonishing phrases. Like you always tell me, I am Siempre contigo too, your youngest.

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    1. Awww mi Tetatechueche you are a true spirit of love and strength! Your words mean so much to me, they have touched me deeply. Although the words just came out naturally, it was difficult. But I am sooooo glad I did it! It is MY TRUTH and there is NO shame in truth! I just want to emphasize on how it is a pleasure when you visit...siempre! always! YOU and your sisters are the world to me! Love ya'

      Siempre Contigo
      *Mom <3

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  9. Such inspiration! This post was beautiful, it broke my heart yet made it stronger. We have all battled with our share of demons and doubts, and your strength is truly one to look up to <3

    xx, Alyssa

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    1. Hola Alyssa!
      It is so very nice when you stop by. I am glad you found inspiration in my post and that your heart is stronger for it. Thanks for your kind words.

      ~SimplyyMayra
      xoxo

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