There have been times it has clawed me into a vast space of oblivion where time stands still and all is forgotten. It seems easier there...in that space. So when that feeling comes over you to take you there, it seems easier to surrender to it rather than to resist it because you feel all alone. Feel me?
One day in a moment of despair and hopelessness I raised my eyes up to the sky and realized my only hope is God's love for me. He and ONLY He loves and accepts me just as I am! He and ONLY He is always with me! I no longer have to feel...all alone! You no longer have to feel...all alone!
Let me share a little story with you. An experience. An enlightenment. Early this morning as my youngest daughter (whom I hardly get to see anymore) kissed me good-bye for the day, I felt the claws of poison clawing its way towards me. I felt the tears welling up inside of me ready to pour and give power to this tortuous force of "aloneness" that persists on taking over me. I was ready to give in and surrender to it, but this time I fought back and turned to Him. I grabbed this little blue book I've been reading, Jesus Today, and here is what He had to say to me today:
"YOU ARE IN ME, AND I AM IN YOU. THIS IS A profound mystery. I am the infinite Creator and Sustainer of the entire universe. You are a finite, fallen human being. Yet you and I live not just with each other but as in other. You are filled with My divine Presence. This is a deeper, fuller union than you can find in any human relationship. Even people who have been married many decades cannot know all the thoughts and feelings of their spouse. But I know everything about you--your deepest thoughts and feelings to the events you will encounter tomorrow. For My children, aloneness is really just an illusion. The whole world is alive with My vibrant Presence!
In Me you live and move and have your being. Every step you take, every word you speak, every breath you breathe--all is done in My watchful, embracing Presence. You are totally immersed in My invisible yet ever-so-real Being! The more aware of Me you are, the more alive and complete you will feel. Your union with Me makes every moment of your life meaningful."
Coincidence? Not!!! That is why I have embarked on a journey of establishing a personal relationship with the greatest man that has ever lived...Jesus. I will be chronicling my experiences along the way in hopes that the stories I share will provoke a chain reaction of inspiration, self-awareness, spiritual awakening, faith and empowerment through God Jesus. I will share the good, the bad and the ugly of past and present experiences only to discover...He was always there! He will always be there! I always did enjoy a good mystery and He truly is a great mystery indeed. I hope you join me in my journey as His mystery unfolds.
~photos used are by Alexandra Cameron